- Lise wrote:
- my thoughts - it's a mistake to withhold information from any member of the community.
Lise, I think that you are exactly right, and that this is, in fact, the crux of the matter. (I think that many others have expressed this perception, in various ways, on the Forum as well).
In my perception, RMJK condemned virtually all critiques of her behavior, and any recognition or acknowledgement of her mistakes or shortcomings--out of her personal fear of betrayal
, and her fear that she and the OBC might be found lacking in integrity
In essence: critique = betrayal = a perceived loss of integrity = the worst case scenario-nightmare.
These fears are very understandable--as unhealed existential trauma. I think it likely that we have all
experienced them in some form!
The problem arises when we enter into denial
. RMJK's denial led to repression, a loss of awareness and, therefore, the inability to heal her own existential trauma back into Awareness itself. Denial sets the fear in concrete. The dynamic became part of her own shadow. And therefore, part of the OBC's shadow as well.
Not surprisingly--denial never works! The denial of shortcomings and mistakes, and an unwillingness to discuss, recognize, acknowledge, or learn from mistakes, inevitably
leads to the very conditions of failure that RMJK most feared.
If the OBC chooses to, in effect, suppress the FTI report by withholding it, they will be acting true to form out of fear, and reinforcing
the very causal dynamic that creates the problem in the first place.
My conviction is that this trajectory leads to the inevitable demise of the OBC as a credible vehicle for spiritual practice--as a result of preserving a fear-based institutional dynamic that undermines awareness.
The alternative (again, in my opinion), would be for the OBC to accept everything
--and relax back into Awareness itself--by fully acknowledging
everything that has occurred. This alternative would require the OBC to embody the principles of spiritual practice that it espouses.
This will be scary. It will also be an enormous
relief for all currently active members of the OBC. Beyond the occasional drama of her own fear--this is, in fact
, what RMJK taught us to do. For the OBC to choose unconditional openness
, will exhibit the greatest possible respect and gratitude for RMJK's teaching--and confirm
its innate integrity.
It seems to me that the OBC is at a crossroads. I think that the choices made this month, at the Conclave, will likely prove to be critical. I hope that sanity prevails.